Have you ever heard the phrase, "Be careful what you pray for because you might get it."? That is the story of my life. don't get me wrong. I love my life. I have a great life. I have everyhing I ever (thought) I wanted.
and now, here i am, in my mid 30's, married with children, stay at home mom, and doer of not a lot. I seem to have lost myself amidst all the dreaming and praying for what I wanted...and getting it only to find that it's not as exquisite as I expected it to be.
It's january 8th today. I'm starting this blog for me. I don't think anyone will read it, but it is cheaper than therapy.
I am married to my best friend. He really is more than I could have ever hoped for in a spouse. And I have wonderful kids. And I prayed to get them. I begged and pleaded with God to please bless me with children. And He did. And then I discovered what I was getting into. Not exactly what I had planned on. I do love being the mom. I love being the wife. I just struggle with it. I don't know why.
I never expected motherhood to be easy. But I didn't expect it to be this hard, either. And now it's calling me away from the computer. So this post will be finished later.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
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